June 2011
I hate the way I look. i hate the way i think. i hate how girls have to be soo uncomfritable with themselves. i hate how i can never make myself happy with the way i look or decisons with guys. i hate the way the world is.
After being upset over seeing one of my ex new pics on fb with his new girlfriend i been thinking about my whole entir life of relationships has been nothing but lies, cheats, n being used. Bc i rememberd recently the only times hed talk to me anymore is when hes single n horny. I talk to my stupidest ex about how i was upset about all the other guys treating me worth shit like being used going on n on. then he says he wishes he can kiss me again. i ask him why, why would someone like me. he says, well at first i didnt. i was actully gonna do it with you and leave you but then more we talked everything started growing on me… how fucking stupid is he. that didnt make me any better. and instead of looking for someone this summer, right now im going to have fun and while having fun im going to find out who i am and what i want n who i want and what im going to be happy with. im waiting for my older years to be that way. i cant trust anybody right now n im going to take time to get my relationships back straight from being fucked up from the other guys. thank you grandmas to talking to me about the guys this week and that i should have fun with it for now.. <3
i got a red bull and vadka up in my handss.
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you look kinda cute. in that poke-a-dot bikini gurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrl.
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guess what i wanna doo.
take off that poke-a-dot bikini guuuuuuurrrl
drink all day, play all night, lets get it pooppin, im in miami bitchh.

“When you smoke the herb, it reveals you to yourself.” -Bob Marley

